Hebrews 12:11

"All discipline for the moment seems not to be joyful, but sorrowful; yet to those who have been trained by it, afterwards it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness."

Have you ever gone through the amazing and terrifying experience of the Lord completely changing, molding, and reworking your life? That's where I'm at right now. Somewhere between that part in the above verse of sorrowful and righteousness. Everything about me is changing. I tangibly feel the Lord "messing" with my life... in a good way :-) So many nights of me being broken before the Lord, but I know He's taking those broken pieces of me and creating a whole new, clean, and beautiful vessel; fully equipped to serve Him in a brand new way.

My physical looks, my desires, my ministry, my friendships... I almost don't know what to think or say. Everyday someone tells me something like "You're countenance has changed, there's more joy in your eyes". It's totally the Lord. It's amazing the change that occurs when you in your flesh stop trying to perform and do things and stop and let the Lord have full control in your life, no matter how seemingly scary it may be. Obedience is better then sacrifice. (1 Samuel 15:22)

I'm going to have to make some big decisions in the next couple weeks that will affect the next two years of my life. Please be praying for me... I promise to fill my readers in soon when I have more details but it has to do with missions. But I do covet your prayers above all else as I seek the Lord and His plan for my life.

"When blood and water hit the ground,
walls we couldn't move came crashing down..."
~ Phil Wickham: True Love


  1. KJ - May the God who has called you from the foundations of the world, speak to the depths of your being and reveal to you the plans that He has laid for you and the good works He has ordained for you to walk in. I don't mind telling you again...you DO look beautiful and it is so much more than watching your points has done for you! Blessings galore!

  2. kjaree!! you are amazing. i am stoked on all that god is doing in and through you. :-) he for sure has rad plans to use you in mighty ways. he has definitely used you in my life. :-)keep up the daily surrender. :-)

  3. sounds like a good place to be. blessings on you...

  4. Lucky you. I am going through a time of great DOUBT. I wish He could send me a sign. Myabe he has already and I just can't see it...


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